Friday, January 7, 2011

just for today.

Dear God,

Thank you for knowing better.
Thank you for denying my request for more hours in a day.
No matter how many times I asked.

Amen.

Days like today make me grateful that every 24 hours we get to close our eyes and recharge. Days like today make me so glad there are only 24 hours a day. Even better? I’m not generally awake to deal with all 24 hours!

In 12 step circles we hold tight to the concept of just for today. I always felt that one day at a time was all fine and good but until you give me the tools to practice that it’s just a cheap cliché thing to say. Then I read something called Just for Today…here are a few snipets…

"Just for today I will try to live through this day only, and not tackle all my problems at once. I can do something for twelve hours that would appall me if I felt like I had to keep it up for a lifetime."


"Just for today I will adjust myself to what is, and not try to adjust everything to my own desires. I will take my luck as it comes and fit myself to it."


"Just for today I will be un-afraid. Especially I will not be afraid to enjoy what is beautiful, and to believe that as I give to the world, so the world will give to me."

I look around me and see people on any given day that are dear to me who are dealing with big problems, little problems, crazy people, sick people and just plain assholes. (Pardon my French but frankly that’s my lot in life today). So for my sanity as well as yours, I offer you my own personal just for today…

Just for today I will think before I speak.
Just for today I will take people for who they are right now.
Just for today I will let God handle the universe for me.

Just for today I will not reach through the phone, rip her a new one, tell her what I really think of her, degrade her with my witty quips about what an asshole she is and how tired of her mean spirited, nonsensical passive agressive craziness I am.

What. Too much detail?
I never said I was perfect.

The point is, just for today. Tomorrow I may take it all back. What I’ve found though is that tomorrow I generally feel different, have more perspective, or I will have gained enough grace that I have enough to share and will find the courage to share it.

Things look different tomorrow than they do today.
So I will deal with them just for today.

And I will thank God that today is merely 24 hours.

-McGee

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